THINK!

After about 5 1/2 hours of dance rehearsal, I think I've realized that I take everything WAY too seriously. My big goal for the day was to concentrate on myself, my costumes, remembering the choreography, and basically what I was supposed to be doing.
Instead, I did that TIMES 18! NO ONE seemed to remember that we should have brought our costumes and shoes for the "dress rehearsal" today. The idea of having white and black tights, leotard and jazz shoes, was seemingly impossible. Things like, "Should we have a bra on under this top?", "Were we supposed to bring a jacket for this dance?" or "What dance is next?" were posed to me several times as the rehearsal dragged on. I feel like things sort of things should be easy enough to figure out by your self. You shouldn't need to ask someone. Of course you should wear underwear like bras and shorts under your costumes. WHY WOULDN'T YOU?!?!? I for one wouldn't do it unless the choreographer said so. So far no one has said that, so.... Again, WHY??? Not enough that they don't seem to understand basic costume rules, they can't remember the dances. We finished one dance yesterday and one this morning. I feel like I'm the only one who remembers all of them. Everyone asks me to show them what we JUST did or they'll ask questions about something we JUST finished doing about ten times in a row. This is of course because they can't seem to focus enough to pay attention since they must carry an intense whispered conversation in the middle of learning new choreography. It wouldn't annoy me this much if it weren't for the tiny fact that the show opens in ONE WEEK. The overall feeling I get from everyone is that "Let's dance... Oh, let's make a show! Here we go!" and that it will fall into place without them having to think too much. It stresses me out!!
My mom and teachers tell me to chill out and focus on me. I tried! It didn't work so well. Admittedly, it could have gone a bit better if people didn't rely so much on my "mad skillz" for remember EVERYTHING. Oh the other hand, if I didn't volunteer all of my information, then maybe there would be less pressure on me. I don't know...
Thankfully, I'm going to spend most of tomorrow sleeping and doing things completely unrelated to the dance show and school. Complete and utter bliss. Next blog will be about something else i.e. no dance or school. ;)

M♥